Sometimes life sucks.
I have a friend who currently is in a rut. She feels so alone, the feeling each one of us has had before. It instills some sort of paralyzing fear for your future and future relationships. It makes you dwell on future so much that it impairs the present and your current relationships. Sometimes people feel pressured by society and social norms that tell us that we need to meet these milestones at exactly the same time as everyone else. Social media only permeates that feeling, you get to see all your high school friends with their happy marriages, baby showers, and slues of posts you can't unread about baby shit. It's great. Or on the other end, you see your friends that have embraced singlehood and are living it up in skeazy micro minis from forever 21 and drinking rum and cokes until the cows come home. Where does this leave some of us. Meh, somewhere in the middle? It depends on who you ask. My friend will be on the borderline of losing it. She is constantly fighting to keep up with the Jones's as a singular unit. I want my best friend back, I miss her.....I just miss HER. I want to find out who told her that this is her goal in life, because it's not. She is better than that, by a god damn metric shit ton. Recently my boyfriend broke up with me (okay so it was last night) I got sad a couple times, the anger passed quickly, then denial, then why, then accepting. I am pretty sure this happened in a span of 20 minutes. I want so much for her to be okay with it, being alone. Putting pressure on someone drives them away, I have done that too. Its like in hockey, you can annoyingly check the backs of the ankles or just high stick.
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